Monday, June 13, 2011

God's Ways Are Not Our Ways

Shortly after David’s surgery last May, after he had bounced back to his almost normal self, he though he would try and write the sequel to his book Maccabee. He discovered he could not. His mind just would not stay focused long enough. So he laid down that dream. But he wasn’t ready to give up on life and ministry. He wanted to use this experience to honor the Lord and maybe encourage others along the way. He thought he might be able to write a short devotional, so he got a legal pad and jotted down some thoughts. I found the legal pad a few months ago. This is as far as he got – the outline (or maybe a partial outline).

Introduction – Learning about having terminal cancer
Chp 1 – A Matter of Perspective
Doctor’s comment about keeping “it” in the background
Keeping eternity in view
Truth
Making sure you are in Christ so you can have a positive perspective
Living in the unseen
Chp 2 – Blessing others with Truth
Demonstrating joy
Chp 3 – Caring for those left behind. Putting house in order

The devotional didn’t get written or rather it didn’t get put on paper. David did write it. Over these past few months he has written it with his life and is still writing it as God says, “not yet. I’m not yet finished with you.”

A month ago we thought God was going to take him home. He didn’t. For the past 3 -4 days he has been sleeping almost around the clock with only short periods of wakefulness. He will still eat a few bites of food (probably the steroids) but is drinking very little. He does not initiate conversation but most of the time he will respond to my simple yes/no questions, though not always. He has periods of being really confused but at other times he understands and responds well. He does not have any problems with knowing who anyone is.

This is where we are today. Only God knows tomorrow.

We are learning in a deeper way that God’s thoughts and ways are not ours. He knows what He is doing and He wants our complete trust, especially when we don’t understand. The journey is not easy but we trust Him to get us there in His perfect time.

Thank you for your continued support to all of our family

Pam